We decided to start doing "no gift Christmases" (for many reasons), and man, this was such a great change. Probably the nicest, most stress free holiday we've ever had. We've definitely made the right decision. :)
How I've Changed In the Last 2 Years:
Physically, I've gotten more piercings and tattoos and have more mature dreads. Also, my weight has fluctuated a lot.
Personality wise, I am more calm and able to contain my emotions better. It seems like every year I find more control over my emotions. Not necessarily that I can control their ebbs and tides, because by no means can I do that (thank you, bipolar disorder!), but I am more capable of controlling myself in situations where I would normally spout off and lose my cool. In one way, I'm thankful for this new ability, but at the same time, I hold, what I think is way too much, inside myself and it causes me a great deal of stress. I don't always stand up for myself when I should, whereas when I was younger I never allowed anyone to make me feel small. It seems like in the trade of becoming more "controlled" I've lost the ability to assert myself, and man, I don't necessarily think it's an even trade.
I've also found my spiritual path, which I've always been aware of, but I've made a great deal more of an effort to follow it.
I'm really still the same person as two years ago, just getting older, I suppose...
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